it's snowing outiside beautifully.. it's that type of snow that makes winter acceptable... the snow is white. it reminds me of songs i used to love when i was younger. (i loved the songs well enough, but the people i associated their melodies with more...)

things have been getting rough around the edges. why haven't we been able to come to a civil agreement? [ i just want everything to be finished.... is that asking too much of life?]

sometimes, the letters i get make me wish that my life were a two-dimentional sketch. the words i write in response "depress" others. i need to put them somewhere, though.

i love the music that comes in the mail unexpectedly. something about the words (or lack thereof) completely destroys my soul. i mean, it's devastating. i listen to it and strate out into the white of winter and remember. i know thath things aren't any better now than they've been in the past. that doesn't mean that the previous times of my life were any better.

i try to see things neutrally, but i'm too involved in my emotion. i cant' say which would be for the best anyhow. i'm not one for mediocrity, and i know thath you could vouch.

i should stop living in the past.